7/26/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:03 PM
i think it sounds funny when people call me Sarah nowadays.
i've seemed to be too accustomed to being addressed as Sarah, with the J.
SarahJ.
funny thing, it originated from staff merdin with intentions of it being a joke.
well, it stuck. and i think it further spread due to natalie who would yell my name with the J behind.
i remember initially, before i was used to it,
i used to call those who called me sarahj, their names with the beginning letter of their sir-name
eg. i used to, and still do call adlin fakhruddin- AdlinF
[but names like nataliew(dou-ble-u) were just to long to call]
and now, virtually everyone calls me SarahJ cos it was just my luck that there were Sarahs in both Charlie and 3I.
oh, dont misinterpret me for being bitter or anything.
there are too many Sarahs in the world.
and im glad to be at least, slightly different from them.
unique, my name sticks easily in people's minds.
haha.
i dont know whats with the entry.
i thought of this as i was running for the bus and natalie and suria shouted, " bye Sarah"
it just sounded odd.
a msn convo with ghost. haha, another person whos name i cant reveal nor her msn nickname.(ghost isnt a random name. there's a link to the person)
me: at what age do you wna die?
ghost: 60+
ghost: i think
ghost: but i think i'll die young
ghost: either by depression or accident.
HAHA. okay, again, it might be funny just to me.
not that i really care anw;
its not like i live to please anyone.
another piece of crap:
i shall be a journalist, and if sgp goes under dictatorship, and im CHAINED to write propaganda for my evill leader, i will continue cos i think currently $$ makes the world go round.
then i will be condemned by historians, like, minister of propaganda, SARAHJ~ then, ahHhHHhHh *get eggs thrown at. i will be in history boooks! sarahj, the great betrayer.
then future hist students will study my life and stuff to see why i went into that path. quite cool!
BUT, BUUUT, no, it shall be sarahj, the great betrayer, and yah, her best friend patricia tan at the background wavin and beamin at the camera to get attention~ so they'll study the leading character, and i'll be a supporting actress, and she'll be small extra spaastic face in the background. but at most she'll do the make up when i and my evil leader take picture,
then can put her name at the photo dre, they always do what right, makeup: PATRICIA TAN, clothes: SOMETHING AND CO. and then it can be a source! cos then her name will be in the tiny words up there. and students in the future might quote your name.
maybe smthg like, the source tells me that the evil leader and his propaganda ministers(me!) were rich. they could afford to hire famous people with high reputated companies to compliment their phototaking sessions, as noted from the picture, they had their make up done by the best 'PATRICIA TAN' -AHAHAHA.
and so, from now, since she wishes to be famous in that aspect, i'll write nice articles for famous people, and bring those famous ppl and their famous frens to her shop. so then it'll become famous, and i'll continue writing nice articles for it.
(: IT ALL ENDS WELL.
we'll change history, in the future.
i cant believe i just typed that.
ohwll, HAHA. the 2 of you cheered me up laa! (:
wicked dreams abuse the curtained sleep;
goodnight.
7/25/2006
noone but me from URL @ 1:49 PM
im at home now,
and i've been feeling effing rotten the whole day.
shucks.
7/21/2006
noone but me from URL @ 11:14 PM
i've only had about 20 hours of sleep the past four days
when a growing child needs an ave of 28-32 hours;
hence my over rated excitement for the weekend.
or maybe not.
since everyone's talking abt it;
talking about bottling it up, and talking about depression and sadness following that,
i think my indifference scares me more.
or if you put it another way,
how i'm ignoring so many things that are staring me blatantly in the face.
sigh.
i guess i shant deal with it till i really have to.
once again, label me with the sign saying 'weak';
but make sure you're strong before you do that.
dont get me wrong.
my indifference does benefit me;
i dont get affected by anyth until i sit down and think.
so believe me when i say that my smiles are real (:
just that i dont think im so brave anymore.
im really scared. really very.
eitherways, to everyone out there.
" tears dont deserve to be in those pretty eyes of yours" (frm zhiyun)
i wont say, 'its okay'. nor would i say 'nevermind';
just- once you're done, remember to move on.
"cos life's like that. sometimes you don't always get what you want, sometimes things dont go the way you want it to, but thats how things are." (frm her)
we'll all pull it through.
you me and God.
(:
noone but me from URL @ 12:39 AM
i feel terribly lost;
that feeling of helplessness.
but this time i think i know why.
oh well, not that i can do anything about that.
sheesh.
ohwell, on a more postive note,
i think i've learnt how to fall asleep with my eyes open;
that, or i've become a darn pro stoner.
stoning is good you know; you are like in a time warp, and you dont remember anything.
you dont take note of your surroundings, and your mind is just blank.
- almost like when you go to sleep.
just that stoning has an advantage. people actually think you're paying attention to them;
when truth, be told- thats the last thing you're doing.
maybe stoning is catching a nap with your eyes open.
either that, or you're so tired that your brain starts sending those msges so slowly, too slowly, so that maybe the brain decides to take a break for awhile(perhaps thinking that the body wouldnt realise it). i mean, the parts of the brain that dont involve our breathing and all.
so, stoning, im beginning to believe as actually good; maybe even healthy.
heck, its smarter than sleeping right?
anw, who came up with the word stoning?
-seriously
its like me saying malu-ating or sth.
okay, whatever.
im in no mood to entertain anyone but myself;
so if you dont get what im saying,
thats your fate.
if you do, good for you.
speaking of which,
my bed beckons.
today wasnt one of our best days.
im sorry, i truely am.
7/19/2006
noone but me from URL @ 11:46 PM
so i love you because i know no other way.
7/17/2006
noone but me from URL @ 12:38 AM
promised words hold no meaning.
nothing actually holds much meaning nowadays,
do they?
hah.
damn it. each day i learn a bit more.
yeah, the person who said that you learn something new each day was speaking the truth;
just not the whole truth.
he never said it'd hurt, did he?
cos its a long long journey,
till i find my way
home.
7/15/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:18 PM
pardon me,
this shall be a random entry.
oh, but then again why would i need you pardon,
considering that this is my blog?
aah, wth.
i was talking to garlic on msn just now.
(those of you who know me well enough, you'll know who this is.
for those of you who dont, heah heah- she laughs evilly like this- HAHA, go find out)
i was telling her abt how cheryl hugged,
JOHNATHAN AND PAUL.( DAMNIT! )
and she commented that she didnt know who they were, and later that she wasnt really disturbed by it. okay thats beside the pt.
then i said
me: but have you heard johnathan sing? its good okay! for a sgrean!
garlic: uh, dunnoe lah
garlic: yu heard me sing? ahaha
garlic: okay HAHA
HAHAHA! i laughed on and on for sometime okay! hahhaa, but perhaps to you all reading this it might be funnier if you know who garlic was. im obviously not typing the msn nicknames out cos
1) it has her name in it
2) it has sth standardised that shdnt be revealed just as yet (:
okay and now she's making me laugh a lot. ahhaha. she's charging per letter to make anyone nicknames. anyone interested? cos she claims the nicknames she creates are widely used. haha.
HAHHA. okay nvm. i've never realised you were this funny and be honoured okay! i dont say anyone is funny! (:
and now she says she wants to charge for every joke she says =x
anw, i watched the movie " yours mine and ours"
dammit, i teared like a freaking waterfall okay!
my brother was damn shocked. haha!
sensitive issues i think.
eitherways, i was highly amused at myself afterwards.
i really teared until i almost couldnt see! haha.
anyway, i realise that people always try to read words that are cancelled or really tiny like this.
you could call it the singaporean kaisu-ness, or whatever.
anyway, im just typing like this, to make idiots out of all of you who are attempting to read this. ciao idiots. i rock la. (:
7/11/2006
noone but me from URL @ 11:38 PM
my brother dearest, ran 3000m, take note, THREE THOUSAND metres, in 11.52 minutes. yes, im proud of him (: and his voice is cracking, he is shooting up, and pimples are breaking out. my brother dearest is growing up! imfreakingworried;damn.
7/10/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:30 PM
im thinking about life, way too much.
dont take me negatively.
i make sense in my thinkings and realisations.
so much sense that i should take a career check.
i shd become a philosopher!( is there such a thing?)
Dr. Sarah Lavinia Joseph.
LOOKS PRO RIGHT?! i know, haha.
or, i can still be a psychiatrist. OH
then i can think a lot, and break the truth to my patients gently.
(:
seriously, i cant wait to stop schooling, and get working.
lead my own life and stuff.
im not cut out for school.
anyways anyhow,
SURPRISINGLY today was a good day!
mother nature left us a note on the white board.
" good morning 3i, today will be a good day!"
it really was. everyone was high.
esp charlie. haha.
thats nice happy high.
i hope our batch ends up like staff merdin's batch.
they're like still super close after two years apart.
okay, or maybe just that whole clique of friends.
lucky for us our charlie clique is so big,
its half our platoon(:
anyway, im not making sense.
oh today during physics, mr goh gave us a question.
and the solution involved using pythagoras theoreom.
HAH. i snorted and laughed out loud.
he looked at me and gave that 'im amused' look.
that-lookofhis-.
and then he said the magic words;
"thats why so many students hate physics. your maths has to be strong"
veryvery good luck to me.
okay anyway, its 1045 now. i must iron my uniform by 11 and go down to watch tv.
so ciao.
oh, but.
im happy that almost everyone was happy today.
it never is nice being happy alone is it?
besides, being with happy people makes you feel happier.
and seeing your friends happy makes you happy too!
(:
okay,
and now i should really stop.
im beginning to sound like some happy bimbo.
HAHA.
GOOODNIGHT! (:
7/06/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:12 PM
i will say again, that i LOVE charlie 06.
and like what natalie said, notice- LOVE.
(:
parade
im sorry i said digimon! HAHA, it reallyreally slipped my mind.
i was intending to say pokemon all along, but-
and i didnt even know it until you all told me. haha. sorry.
anw, the digimon characters sounded cute what; whatever they were =x
Mr Lam
i think he is dear old man, who has a wacky laughter. HAHA.
and he thinks he ought to work in the circus.
-haha, he amuses me a great deal.
barbie/chem rep
i think she's the sickest and most blabbermouth 15yr old around.
tell the whole world abt her chocolate pudding including mr lam, sheesh.
barbie/chemrep: you see! HAHA, now your chocolate pudding will find out.
adlin
forget it la. she's the all-time classic winner for her spasticity, lameness and retard-ation. noone shd even bother competing against her.
(walking down the stairs frm classrm block)
adlin: why you carry your bag like that?
(kathleen was holding it in her hands)
kathleen: haiiya, cos i dont want to carry.
adlin: then you might as well put it on the floor and let it walk right?
me: they dont have legs. -__-
*a pause.
adlin: but they have BAGbones what!
HILARIOUS, no? haha.
myself
during the thailand nc/npcc trip,
i asked celestine what cca she was from.
HAHA.
they were all just random things/ people.
HAVE A GOOD DAY TOMORROW! (:
today was almost a good day, wasnt it?
probably cos i wasnt lost during amaths nor physics.
hah.
7/02/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:45 PM
Carol Ann Duffy, Valentine.
Not a red rose or a satin heart. I give you an onion. It is a moon wrapped in brown paper. It promises light like the careful undressing of love.
Here.
It will blind you with tears like a lover.
It will make your reflection a wobbling photo of grief. I am trying to be truthful.
Not a cute card or a kissogram. I give you an onion.
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,
possessive and faithfulas we are, for as long as we are.
Take it.
Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding-ring, if you like.
Lethal.
Its scent will cling to your fingers, cling to your knife.
GERMANY! (:
and with it shall come a cup of kokokrunch!
noone but me from URL @ 12:02 AM
SYF!
i'll leave it simply at,
the ma'ams and sirs were entertaining,
i enjoyed shooting the feu de joie without IA,
and of course, none of this would be possible without charlie(:
special thanks to sunmeng and suria, my two back row friends.
*raises hand to heart. "its all in the heart(: *cuts hand back down sharply.
manythanks go to the specialists who came down to see us as well,
haha, and to mr Lee as well. the above two mentioned made me feel extremely proud!
oh, and i definately enjoyed leaving school early.
but i didnt really like the lunch provided,
nor the fact that they deprived us of water.
it was like opening a present each time either 3 (sunm suria me) of us recieved a bottle.
-seriously; we were that thirsty, not to mention, deprived.
anyways, anyhow;
im glad monday is a holiday.
despite the fact that school only just started, i need a day off.
i've got to catch up with my work.
wth, my class is doing special functions, and i dont even know what functions are.
and i need to read up on my MOLE things. i dont get it.
and i feel especially dumb during amaths and chemistry.
=x its a sad feeling you know. the whole world knows whats gg on except for you. so all you do, or rather all you can do is just sit down and stone.
but im contented with stoning though i dont see it getting me anywhere. hah.
oh, and i think mrs ou yang asked a funny question during her address.
" how many of you all think you all can cope?" (with the tests, hw and whatnot)
what a question. i mean, arent we all coping, if not trying to?
haha, like as though we are given a choice anyway.
oh dear, i make my life out to be very sad.
gladly, i can say that thats not the sad truth.
literally.
you know why?
at the end of a long and tiring day;
no matter how down or screwed up i am,
i always, and unfailingly have my BED to turn to.
(: i'd cry without my bed.
and that teddy bear bravo 05 gave me to hug.
it still smells nice! haha.
GOODNIGHT YOU ALL.
TOMORROW WILL BE A GOOD DAY.
i'll live each day just to say that. huh 3i? (:
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